I need to slow down, do less, and rest more.
I don't want to maintain the level at which I've been operating. So I'm going to stop. :)
I am going to lower my expectations. For myself and for others.
We cannot all be operating at 100% like everything is normal.
If I am this stressed out and tired, how do my students feel? Their parents? My co-workers?
We are all freaking exhausted.
Yes, my bills still need to get paid. Yes, I need to go to work. Yes, I am thankful for my job.
But no, no, no to most everything else and to anything extra right now. I can't do it. I cannot.
There's already too much to process on a daily basis.
So here's my daily intention for this week:
Wake Up. Show Up. Be compassionate. Give 70%. Go Home.
I woke up early this morning to go grocery shopping before the store got crowded. I didn't really feel like it, but I am so glad I went. Now I have food for the week. I have housing. I have a job.
My basic needs are met.
For this week, I am going to wake up and show up.
But I will not give away all of the energy that I have. I need a lot of it for myself.
Thank you, infertility, for my hard-earned understanding of how to take care of myself.