Tuesday, October 27, 2020

Mental Health Day

I took the day off. I've done nothing productive. I'm writing this from bed.
I woke up, thought Nope, wrote an email to my boss, and went back to sleep.

I got eight hours of sleep last night and I went on to sleep another three. That is not normal.

I've been in bed all day: reading, online window shopping, and watching murder mysteries on tv. I have exerted almost zero energy. I feel a nap coming on. This is not normal.

I'm keeping up with my blog reading, but I notice I'm not writing or commenting as much.

I make sure I sew at least once a week (and it's often more), but it's smaller tasks for shorter amounts of time. And that's okay.

Simply feeding myself several times a day feels like a lot.

I am so tired. Which I've written about a lot on this blog. Enduring infertility is exhausting on every level. Surviving infertility requires a strength on every level that you never knew you had. Plus, there's everything else life throws at you because it doesn't all just stop when you go through life-altering trauma. And now this. 2020. As if the majority of us didn't start out exhausted already...

I can't do much of anything that is affecting me right now. There's too much to list and there's hardly anything I can do about any of it. But I can put myself first. That's something I learned from infertility. I can ask myself reflective questions and do the best I can to meet my needs. I can decrease my expectations and increase my acceptance. Or try to anyway. 

But first I shall nap.



6 comments:

  1. I am glad you are taking care of yourself ♡. Sending hugs!

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    1. I went back to work yesterday and I was SO GLAD I took the previous day off and did nothing. One day off can do wonders when you're not feeling it, physically or emotionally. <3

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  2. I'm glad you could take a mental health day! Just existing is so freaking hard right now. If you don't take care of yourself, you're busy will force the issue. I'm glad the day was restorative!

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    1. We are all so low on resources. Yet it unrelenting so we have to pace ourselves the best we can. I'd like another day off... Wouldn't we all? Speaking of, why aren't we all simply hibernating this winter? Instead I'm taking full advantage of the time change and have crawled into bed very, very early to read and watch tv under a pile of quilts.

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  3. Sounds like a day that was well deserved and well spent! Good for you!

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    1. It was wonderful to take a day off from everything life demands. I didn't do anything fun, but I definitely took the day off from email, errands, and everything else. :)

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