I'm tired and I'm angry and I'm tired of being angry.
But here we are...
I'm angry that I haven't eaten in a restaurant since mid-March, I haven't seen my parents in over a year (by FAR the longest time we've ever gone), and I don't even feel safe going into work. Yet, co-workers are having potlucks and going to parades while friends and family are traveling for the holidays and weddings. (A wedding? Really?? WTF?)
I don't do anything. I don't go anywhere. I read, write, sew, shop, cook, clean, and watch tv. All at home. I go to the grocery store at 5:30 in the morning every 2 - 3 weeks and that's because we don't have any pick-up or curbside delivery service here. I go to the post office but only when there isn't a line.
I hate this pandemic and I hate people's selfish reactions to it.
I am angry. I am tired. And I have nothing original to say.
So, I'm sitting here with it. Feeling my feelings. Knowing they are more than valid and justified, even though feelings don't have to be "valid" or "justified" to be felt. Knowing there's nothing I can do about the pandemic or my job or other people's choices. There's nothing I can do at all.
I've been here before.
All of us in this community have been here before.
Angry. Sad. Unable to do anything about any of it.
I remind myself what I've already been through, what I've already survived.
I choose to keep going.
But I'm still mad.
I'll share with you a couple of quotes I've come across recently.
Remember to enjoy the little things. 💟
A good find on social media (sorry it's a little blurry):