Friday, December 11, 2020

Sitting With Anger

I'm tired and I'm angry and I'm tired of being angry.

But here we are...

I'm angry. 

I'm angry that I haven't eaten in a restaurant since mid-March, I haven't seen my parents in over a year (by FAR the longest time we've ever gone), and I don't even feel safe going into work. Yet, co-workers are having potlucks and going to parades while friends and family are traveling for the holidays and weddings. (A wedding? Really?? WTF?)

I don't do anything. I don't go anywhere. I read, write, sew, shop, cook, clean, and watch tv. All at home. I go to the grocery store at 5:30 in the morning every 2 - 3 weeks and that's because we don't have any pick-up or curbside delivery service here. I go to the post office but only when there isn't a line. 

That's... It. 

I hate this pandemic and I hate people's selfish reactions to it.

I am angry. I am tired. And I have nothing original to say.

So, I'm sitting here with it. Feeling my feelings. Knowing they are more than valid and justified, even though feelings don't have to be "valid" or "justified" to be felt. Knowing there's nothing I can do about the pandemic or my job or other people's choices. There's nothing I can do at all.

I've been here before.
All of us in this community have been here before.

Angry. Sad. Unable to do anything about any of it.
I remind myself what I've already been through, what I've already survived.
I choose to keep going.

But I'm still mad.


I'll share with you a couple of quotes I've come across recently.
Remember to enjoy the little things. 💟

A good find on social media (sorry it's a little blurry):

A pleasantly surprising text from one of my sisters, saying "Just like you!" with this pic:


  1. You are not a tree.... I love this quote!!!

  2. It's nice that your sister has recognised this too. And sees it as a quality. (Which it is!)

    Parades and weddings. Really? It's so hard to imagine that people do this. Sigh. Sending safe, COVID-free hugs.

  3. Love those quotes! Oh holy Moses, I feel your anger. It is SO HARD to be there ones doing all the right things and watching the rates skyrocket and know it's because of all the people doing the wrong things. Grrrr. "You're not a tree" -- I LOVE that! I wish I could move forward in time to where the pandemic is over. 😉

  4. You have every right to be angry! (Potlucks? Seriously??) -- I'm angry too. I want to see my family... but when it's safe. It's not safe right now, no matter what people think. And they're making it less safe for the rest of us. :(