Friday, June 11, 2021

Relatable Words from Others

Hearing other people's stories is a privilege. Being there for people when they are at their most vulnerable is a big responsibility. I would have never considered a new career, much less one in healthcare (I *hate* anything medical and I'm the most anxious patient ever), if it weren't for my experiences with infertility.

I still don't like it when things don't go according to plan. I definitely don't like waiting. I don't like injections, blood draws, or ultrasounds. I'm sure I never will. But I can handle it. All of it. And I remember all of it too. Because of this, when I work with people I try to really see each person, empathize with their feelings, and validate their experience.

And people will talk when there is someone to listen. They will tell you their pain. They will tell you their worries. They will ask you questions you don't have answers for.

Every day at work I experience so many different feelings and situations. 

Today I heard an elderly person say, "I'm trying to live, but it seems like I can't live or die." It reminded me of when I felt like that, in between living and being dead. This person has different circumstances from me, but these awful feelings transcend many different scenarios. I felt like I could relate. There was nothing I could say, but I could listen.

Also today, I heard another elderly person say, "Yeah, I never married. I never met the right man. Didn't have children either. I just did whatever I wanted. Like I do now. It's great!" And just like that, on the complete other end of the spectrum of my infertility-related feelings, I could relate to this sentiment too. It felt great. 

I don't have children and I do whatever I want. Of course, I have to live within the parameters of real life and my budget and everything. But not raising children is the reason why I changed careers, why I moved out of state, why I got divorced, and why I live where I live now. 

I'm doing what I want. I'm living my life, not anyone else's.

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  1. " ... it seems like I can't live or die." Those sentiments were what my father-in-law probably meant for so long. Going blind, serious mobility and other health issues, socially awkward, he couldn't live and he couldn't die. But I could see the things he could do but still didn't, and that has made a difference to my attitude and thoughts about my old age.

    I love the attitude of the second person. And of your last sentences. Brava! You're giving me food for thought for today's post, I think - I don't want to write a post in your comments!

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    1. I ached for the first person and my heart leapt with joy for the second person. Life is so hard, but it can be good too.

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  2. Yes, you inspired me. https://nokiddinginnz.blogspot.com/2021/06/rising-from-ashes.html

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    1. Oh wow, I am humbled. I didn't even know what I was sitting down to write when I wrote this post. I just knew I wanted to share those two comments from others for some reason.

      You have inspired me so many times over the years and I am honored to return the favor!

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  3. Living your life is an excellent way of living. I do exactly the same <3

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    1. Thank you Klara! I learned from all of the women that started blogging before me. <3 <3 <3

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  4. "I'm doing what I want. I'm living my life, not anyone else's."

    This speaks to me in so many ways. Loved how you described the two spectrums. Thanks for saying that so clearly and thoughtfully.

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    1. There's such a wide variety of feelings involved with living our lives after infertility without raising children. I'm glad this post was helpful!

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