Well, hello August. August 2021. If you count March 2020 as month 1, we are now month 18 into this pandemic. Everyone/Everything everywhere is exhausted.
I try to remember what it was like when I was 18 months into trying to get pregnant. I remember it was awful from the very first month. Just like this pandemic has been. I felt lonely, sad, confused, frustrated, devastated, and angry. I was isolated from my peer group. I avoided people as much as I could. I ran errands, volunteered once a week, and ate Mexican food with my husband on Friday nights, but, other than that, I didn't do a whole lot. I try to remember more details, but that time period (months 8 - 24 TTC) is one big blur of sadness.
It felt like it would never end.
Just like this pandemic is feeling.
I remind myself that everything is temporary. Change is inevitable. The days are long but the years are short. Over time even the Grand Canyon was carved by water...
It won't be like this forever.
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DeleteI think infertility teaches us so much. I'm hoping very much this pandemic won't last forever, but I'm not as hopeful! Still, we'll all figure out a way to survive and even thrive in our new normal. Which, like infertility, might seem unthinkable now, but you're right. It will get better. Thanks for the reminder.
ReplyDeleteI'm not that hopeful that the pandemic will end... Life will always be different pre- and post-2020. But I hope there will be a time in the future where I'm not afraid to see loved ones because of the virus.
DeleteYou are right. We will figure it out. We will survive. Even thrive. <3
Great analogy. Nothing lasts forever, but man, sometimes it feels like you are in a time loop. I totally agree that infertility teaches us the skills to deal with limbo, with stagnation, with hopes dashed, and with continual disappointment. We know we will survive this.
ReplyDeleteSooo many skills learned from infertility...
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