I am so over my nonreproductive system. So so so over it.
I had to go in for an in-office procedure yesterday, just like I had to do only a year ago.
I hate it. Not my body necessarily. I am continually working on learning to appreciate everything I have. My body gets me from place to place and lets me go to work and do my job and enjoy my hobbies and eat and sleep and live my life.
But I hate my nonreproductive system. What has it ever done for me?
Emotional periods in my teens, a large ovarian cyst in my 20s, infertility in my 30s, and now I'm getting abnormal results from my annual exam two years in a row (with my family's medical history putting me higher at risk for something untreatable)? So. Freaking. Over. It.
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So I go in for my procedure, get prepped by the nurse, the doctor walked in to greet me, and the first thing I said was, "Hi. When can I get a hysterectomy?"
And to my complete surprise the first thing she said was, "Hi. Let's take care of this today and then we can schedule a consultation to discuss it."
Immediately, I said, "Are you serious?? I really wasn't expecting that. I know it can be hard to get that procedure approved by doctors and insurance."
She said, "Normally I wouldn't. But I read your chart. You've been through enough."
"You've been through enough."
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Thank you. Thank you, Dr. B, for the empathy, for the surgery approval, and mostly for the validation. It's nice to hear it from someone who is a medical professional. It's nice to hear it from someone in real life. It's nice to hear it from someone other than myself.
Oh, that's wonderful. Someone who is prepared to discuss it, and who has actually read your chart and understood what that meant for you.
ReplyDeleteI can tell you that I wondered if I would feel sad after my hysterectomy - I didn't. I felt free.
WOW!!!!!! You've been through enough are some pretty powerful words!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI’m sorry you’re going through that but really glad that she gets the big picture. Sending good thoughts and hope things go forward as you want them to:
ReplyDeleteAcknowledgment is such a powerful thing! I keep my fingers crossed that everything goes like you wish to.
ReplyDeleteOh, yes. That validation sounds like singing from the sky... how lovely that your doctor acknowledged your pain and your history. I can tell you, being a recent hysterectomy person myself, that it was worth it. To be free of that nonreproductive system's torture is a beautiful thing. It's a lovely kind of closure to be done with all that.
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