If you would've told me five years ago that, five years from now, I'd be living in another state, living life without children after infertility, divorced, and substitute teaching preschool I don't think there's any way I would have been able to believe it. Well, we probably shouldn't go back in time and tell my past self that because, honestly, my past self may not have been able to handle it. That might've been the end of me. I would've melted into a puddle right there.
But, I am not the me of five years ago. I am the me of five years ago plus the past five years.
And what a five years they've been...
Oh. I just did the math. Five years ago I was still charting. Hadn't even been to the clinic yet.
I'm substitute teaching preschool. Hahahaha. That sounds so bizarre and it's my life.
But I am so thankful. In a still-new city where I don't know that many people, it was nice to be able to walk into a job. I knew some people there and so I was able to call and start working that week.
It's humbling because it's all I can handle right now. It's part-time; I only work a couple of days a week. And I'm still foggy from the divorce. I haven't even replaced my cell phone from when I tossed it in the washer a couple of weeks ago. I mean, I'm in the process of replacing it. Everything is just... Such a process...
But here I am, an infertile and recently divorced woman, happily substitute teaching preschool.
Life is weird. :)