Wednesday, May 12, 2021

One Month Later

One month ago I wrote that 2021 had me feeling depressed without much to look forward to. The pandemic sucked, unemployment was stressful, and I was still working hard to create a life I wanted to live after surviving infertility without my children. I was worn out. Tired. Disappointed.

One month ago I felt depleted but was trying to remind myself that I wouldn't feel this way forever.
(It's my favorite coping strategy.)

One month ago I felt unsettled... Unmoored... Anchorless...
Almost directionless. Rootless for sure.

One month later... And so much has changed. Most relieving, I am fully vaccinated!!! I won't be changing my behavior any time soon. I'll still be wearing a mask when I run errands. I am going to keep avoiding crowds. But the mental relief that I feel... It's indescribable. But it also comes with a side of guilt. We still have so far to go in getting the rest of the world vaccinated.

One month later... And I've received a job offer! Today I went to orientation to learn about policies and procedures. It wasn't exactly thrilling, but I am thankful that I'm on track to resume meaningful employment again. I'd like to say that maybe I will retire from this job, but I'm going to stop saying that. I don't know what the future holds. But maybe I will make it through the probationary period haha. Maybe I won't quit. Or move. 

One month later... And I'm under contract to buy a house. Um, what?! That's the most unexpected thing of all. I wasn't even looking. Buying a house was not on my radar screen. But I saw a house online that was affordable (yes, affordable!) with two bathrooms (I really want two bathrooms), a carport (yay, covered parking), and a nice backyard. I KNEW it wouldn't last long. So I went and looked at it and put in an offer. The next day my offer was accepted. 

So... We will see... Anything could happen. But things are looking good... And now, instead of constantly daydreaming about fabric and everything I want to sew (quilts! clothes! bags! stuffed animals!), I am now constantly daydreaming about fabric and everything I want to sew AND this new (old) house that might become my home!!! Wow.





8 comments:

  1. What wonderful news!
    Congratulations on the new job and house! I am very happy for you.

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    1. Thank you!! I hesitated on posting about such personal information, but, in the past, I've posted about other, much more personal information... I also hesitated about posting such good news when so many people are experiencing the opposite. I don't want to be insensitive to this very difficult financial time. But, I figure, it's not a fancy house or an expensive house or a house in the city... It's very old and very modest and needs lots of fixing up, but it's a potential home where I can feel settled for awhile. So I went ahead and shared my good news (hopefully!).

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  2. Oh wow, congratulations!! on both the job AND the house! You never know what each new year will bring...! :)

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    1. Thank you!!! <3 It's been a whirlwind and I'm still a pile of nerves, but I will take positive stress over negative stress any day.

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  3. Congratulations! Those are such awesome moments! I'm so happy for your house, and for your job. One month later... WOW!

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    1. Thank you!! Learning this new job is kicking my butt, but I'm thankful for the opportunity and the experience. It's funny... It feels so different this time. Instead of getting ahead of myself and thinking big, grand thoughts of the future, I am just taking this job one day at a time.

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  4. Wow! Congratulations on the job - though I'm working backwards reading your posts, so I already knew that and I think said it already too! lol

    Congratulations too on being fully vaccinated. I am so relieved for you. We are still waiting here - I'll be happy if we're vaccinated by the end of the year. Of course, it doesn't mean the same thing here.

    Double congratulations on the house. That was super quick work! And very exciting. I cannot wait to hear all about your house.

    What a difference a month makes.

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    1. Thank you!! I realize I've only been fully vaccinated for a couple of weeks now and I feel much, much better. A massive amount of relief is noticeable; I am not as anxious.

      I told myself I didn't want to go back to working with people (as opposed to working a remote job) until I was fully vaccinated. I had no idea it would all happen so soon!

      I'm excited about the house. The only other time I bought a house was when I was married and we bought a house that we thought we'd raise our children in. VERY different experience this time around...

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