I like my childless life too. And I never, ever thought that would be possible.
Yes, life has been stressful lately. But I still like it. I like the life I created for myself. Where I live, what I do for work, what I do for fun.
I recently wrote that I was lonely, but that's not true. I am alone a lot... But I am not lonely. I realize there's a big difference. I had a birthday recently and heard from a couple of longtime friends. That felt good. I reflected on how I've grown over the last year and thought about what I'm looking forward to in the future. Big things. Small things. Lots of little things.
I'm pretty happy. Despite the stress, despite the depressive tendencies.
I'm content too. I am at peace.
I'm content too. I am at peace.
I know I can get through anything. I always have.
But even more than that... I am actually living. Like, getting up and going to work/school, running errands, and maintaining a home. I've been doing it for awhile now.
And I ENJOY it. I LIKE my life.
It's a big deal, it's a hard-earned feat, and I am thankful.
My latest quilt top.
I bought the fabric over three years ago when I started quilting but didn't use it until this past weekend. I had an idea and this wasn't it at all (hahaha), but I like how it turned out!
Your quilt is beautiful! Just like life, it wasn't what you had planned, but it is gorgeous and vibrant, just like you. And I'm glad you like them both!
ReplyDeleteI just really wanted to share the message that liking your life after devastating loss is possible because I didn't think it was. <3 Thanks for the quilt compliment! I had a lot of fun making it.
DeleteHow gorgeous is that quilt, Phoenix!
ReplyDeleteI am glad that, despite all the current challenges, you can say that you like your life <3.
Thank you! I'm really happy with how it turned out.
DeleteI realized the other day that if I won the lottery I wouldn't change anything major. I wouldn't move and I wouldn't quit my jobs. I would keep living this same life I have. Maybe I'd start traveling to see friends I haven't seen in a long time. Of course, I'd have to buy a lottery ticket to have a chance to win so my odds are non-existent haha.
Love the quilt! and I love the message of this post! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you, Loribeth!
DeleteGORGEOUS quilt! Look at that masterpiece!
ReplyDeleteAnd look at the piece of beautiful art that is loving your life, as it is. :) Great message, because in the beginning it really doesn't seem possible that you could walk away from all the what-ifs and embrace a different life that you build from the ground up, but you have accomplished so much! Huzzah for all of us who have seen a dream dismantled and then built a new one.
Awww, I love that. "The piece of beautiful art that is loving your life as it is." Thank you, Jess!
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